Is it really the last day though, my little sprites and sprockets?

The last day in May? Yes. The last day of attempting to hold myself accountable to living my best life? (Which might not be as exciting as other people’s best lives, but whatever.) Nope. Absolutely freaking not.

Overall score? Let’s say a solid C+ to B-. We’re gonna aim for an “A” in June. But if I want to be honest with myself, and I do because lying makes me twitch under one of my eyeballs thanks to Marie making me so fucking scared to lie when I was a kid that now I’m virtually incapable of it, we’re probably only gonna pop that grade up to a B+.

So, in the physical department, it was all good. Workouts have been longer, harder, and more consistent. Even though it’s tiring, I feel good. Out of all the workouts I had planned and logged, only one got skipped. In total, there has been five solid hours of exercise a week in addition to my regular job, which keeps me on my feet for about 6-7 hours per shift. I’ll tell you what – every single bite of the bacon cheeseburger and every single drop of that Guiness on Saturday was well fucking deserved. The psycho babble fitness experts say we’re not supposed to reward ourselves with food because we’re not dogs. Well, you can shove that advice in your crap can because I am a hungry mammal that loves food and am pretty sure that when a person rewards themselves, it’s supposed to be something pleasurable to the one being rewarded. And I choose food and alcohol, bitches.

That being said, I only allowed myself one cheat day a week with my food and most weeks it didn’t involve sugar. We have to step up that game a little bit more though. I can do better and am going to challenge myself to go down to no sugar unless it comes from fruit. I also think a few more bread and pasta carbs can go. The potatoes stay for now. Let’s not get too crazy. We’re looking to reach goals, not commit homicide. Yes, my passion for potatoes runs deep. Also, I took the “before” bikini pic and am not ready to take the “after” yet. Let’s see where we are at the end of June. I would love to get just a wee bit tighter around the middle, ya know?

What else? The writing….. not as much as I had hoped and reading even less. Grrrrrrrr! Another challenge for June. BUT!! I did do something….. I wrote a chapter for a writing contest and am submitting that at the end of this week so that was a step out of the box for me. Usually, I don’t put forth my writing in any sort of contest or public forum beyond this tiny blog. As usual, the lesson to be learned here is that getting out of the soft, warm blanket that is our comfort zone will get us a hell of a lot further and provide more satisfaction than staying all comfy and cozy in there. And I dig satisfaction. Don’t you?

Lastly, I have molted my semi-obsession with acquiring another hobby. I may still try my hand at photography because it seems fun and also do-able and I enjoy looking at things from the outside…. but not right now. Remember friends, if you’re trying to accomplish multiple things at once and find that you’re lagging behind or just outright failing – it may be too much. Don’t get me wrong. Strive for excellence. Be the best you. All that shit. Just don’t burn out doing it.

You guys are the best and I’ll have more creative material for you in June – I promise. Thank you for all the support.

❤ Ms. Snow